It's always a little harder to trust God outside of the boat.

See the story of Peter in Matthew 14:22-33.

We often find ourselves saying, "what the heck am I doing out here?" as we start to sink. And then when we look back up at Jesus we realize He's the reason we left the boat in the first place and that being closer to Him is always worth the waves.

It's in those moments when my faith is weak that I am thankful for the hours I've spent in the Word. When my understanding fails, the bedrock of truth, the Word of God inside me, will not let me bend. "He is faithful, He cannot deny Himself" (2 Tim. 2:13). I can't get around it, no matter how much my heart would like to believe other things.

The very truth that I thought I was dully landing upon my heart, during day after day of meditation, has now become the foundation that my feet are stuck in. The Word of God on the inside is uninfluenced and unmoved by my fearful heart and my fainting soul. It's like titanium has been welded to my bones,  holding me up when I can't hold up myself.

Even as I start to think, "this just won't work, maybe God won't come through for me", everything I've ever read and believed about God screams otherwise. Out of the Old Testament comes a rumbling witness, thundering with the weight of countless fulfilled promises, prophecies and covenants. The God who puts rainbows in the sky as a sign of His mercy, the God whose armies defended His people time and time again, the God who stands as a great High Priest in heaven,  He is the same God who upholds me. He is a covenant keeping God. He is the same yesterday, today and forever; He will not change.

When I don't see how it's going to work it just means it's going to work in a way that I don't see. So I've gotta lean in, get closer and hold tight to the great Author who's writing a better story than I ever could. It's time to start paying close attention, to start asking for revelation; I need my ears and eyes open to be able to obey. If I've got to be ready to move in a way I do not yet see, it mean's I've gotta be ready for anything.

I can trust on this rock, this firm foundation. He is able, He is willing, and He always keeps His promises. I can step out into the crashing ocean of the unknown and know one thing -- He always lifts my head above the waves.